I can’t help but cry. I thought doing everyday stuff was going to be easy. Nothing is easy without my mom, she knew how to fix everything. I clean the house literally everyday and it always gets trashed within hours. No one seems to understand that I like the house being neat! Like I am embarrassed to have people over because no one seems to have any sort of cleanliness… I just want to break down and give up. I can’t wait to be 18 and on my fucking own. I just can’t gamble between school and trying to keep my at home shit together. I feel as though my life and everything is falling apart. My teachers don’t understand I come to school running on 0 hours of sleep. I come home to an empty house everyday and it’s like that ‘til 9:30 or 10 oclock. I have a 1st degree sex offender living across from me - I never needed to lock my doors ‘til now. I never thought I’d have my dad tell me the combination to his safe in case I have to use a gun on an intruder. It’s been a living fucking hell since my mom passed away. I have my good times but then again it’s hard as fuck! I can’t help but to cry all the time. I just wish it was all so different.

The moment I go to get Babblr. I get this fucking pop up?!?!?!

Bold what’s true about you

I am under 18.
I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person. 
“young green shoot
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
l am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I am a little shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies. 
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping. 
I love to shop. 
I own 100 CDs or more. 
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
I am wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.

I have/had:
Finished college.
Smoked a cigarette
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep. 
Spent over $200 in one day. 
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe. 
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.

My hair is naturally the color:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blond
Black
Dirty blond
Strawberry blond
Multicolored
Red

My eyes are:
Brown
Dark Brown
Blue
Green
Hazel 
Light brown

People sometimes label me as:
Slut
Boyish
Colorful
Ugly
Nerd
Other 

Some of my biggest fears are:
Spiders/other insects
Slimy things
Hospitals 
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Small animals
Open spaces

I have:
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
Good grades
My own car
Parents who are still married
A dog
A cat
A game console